I was married to a Josh Duggar

Josh Duggar is GUILTY!! These words were music to my ears today.

I was married to a Josh Duggar and had a child in that marriage.

He was “addicted” to porn. I set up my computer to be able to see his downloads to keep an eye on him as he was also unfaithful. One day when I was 6 months pregnant I went to check his recent downloads. I didn’t even open the files. The titles of his recent downloads were enough to let me know he was downloading CP.

I confronted him about it and his only defense was “It wasn’t even that, here I can show you the video”. I passed on seeing the video but I was sick to my stomach and had no idea what to do.

See you might as well call me Anna without the religious indoctrination. I was a stay at home wife, soon to be a stay at home mom. He was a narcissist who had convinced me I was worthless, no one else wanted me and I had to depend on him. He promised me he would never download or look at CP again.

When our son was 1 month old he deployed. I took this as my chance to escape him. My best friend, now husband helped me escape. During my escape I logged into his email and saw he had registered for a site that was full of CP.

I went to the Children’s Aid Society and reported this. When my ex got back from deployment they called him in for an interview but he never went. They closed the case. There was nothing I could do.

I fought in the courts to keep him away from my child but no one would listen as he had never harmed my child. Unless he harmed my actual child there was nothing I legally could do to protect my son.

When my son was 2 years old my ex was arrested for aggravated sexual assault and criminal negligence causing bodily harm. 6 counts of each. I was one of the victims so I was called in for questioning and to give them a statement. During this time I informed them about the CP and they may want to keep an eye out for it.

Two months later the police called me, “We found CP, can you please send us a photo of your son to compare to what we found”. My heart dropped into my stomach. I felt like throwing up. They called me two weeks later. He was arrested for possession of CP. My only question, “Was it my son?”. Thankfully the answer was no.

When all was said and done in the courts he plead guilty to 3 counts of aggravated sexual assault and 3 counts of criminal negligence causing bodily harm. 1 count each for 3 victims. One being me. The possession of CP charges were dropped the day before the trial was to start. I have no idea why. This was 10 years ago and still makes me sick to my stomach. I would bet any money he is still doing it.

Thankfully he signed over his rights to our son and my now husband adopted him. At least I know my son is safe from this “man”

So I am very thankful Josh Duggar was found guilty but my heart breaks for Anna. She very well could have and probably did believe he was innocent. She was raised to believe her husband is always right. She was raised to blindly follow her husband. He too is in my opinion is a narcissist.

What happens to Anna now? How will she support herself and her children? Will she come to the realization of who Josh Duggar really is? Will she turn against her faith and her family and find the strength and the support for herself and her children? I really hope so. Today is one day many celebrate but it is a dark rocky road ahead for Anna Duggar and I deeply feel for her.